B-boy Cold-D 라춥다

Damn I just realized that’s me. Ever since my best friend moved away, it just seems that I can’t find a stable group. No one recognizes me for who I am anymore. It feels as if all my close friends are disappearing and I’m just drifting from group to group just trying to fit in, but at the same time being rejected. Someone asked me this before, if I was ok, and I thought I was. He said that it looked like I was just drifting from group to group, and it seems like I didnt really belong anywhere. I thought that was complete BS until today. Just saw some stuff and finally realized, how alone I really was. Its unbelievable. At one point, I thought i was on top of the world with the people I thought were my friends. But I guess not. Its so strange how losing one person, can really make your entire life change, and you as a person. I feel as if the groups i’ve been migrating around and around too really made me, just the type of person that doesn’t talk to people much anymore and just can’t get a good friend. For the past week, i’ve just stopped walking around and now thinking back, i just realized i’ve sat alone for the entire day or just went home for lunch. This really is shocking cuz i just can’t believe, i don’t belong anywhere anymore. Not with the studious group, or the asian group, or the sophomores, or the breakers, not even my church group. It seems that everything’s just slipping away. I let go of what I try hard and focus on, and when i look back now, I’m completely different again. I’ve turned into a friendless/groupless person who can’t interact with people and settle down anymore. I’ve changed from a man loyal to the lord and will just do the right things and smile everyday to a person who just wants to be accepted and puts up a fake smile everyday. What have I done to myself….

I just want that special someone that you can share your day with, laugh around, hold hands and be cute together. Hope that person will show up soon

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hello there .

(Source: thefaggotmonster)